Quarterlife Crisis

It's 12:42 in the morning when I'm starting this blog entry......

I have had so so so much on my mind these last few days and I don't even really know where to start. There is so much going on in my life that I just broke down tonight. I just started crying for no reason. Well, I do have many reasons.

But first let me update you on some amazing news. Dad got a job!!! In my last blog I mentioned that a company was contacting him like crazy while we were on vacation. Well, after 2 interviews and a couple of days of figuring out the details he accepted the job and will start on Monday! Its a HUGE answer to prayers for our family. Since he is going to be starting this new job he will be gone more for a little while while he is getting things worked out and calling on all of his customers, but in the long run its going to be a really good thing. I'm so thankful that we had our week of vacation as a family and had such a wonderful time.

Now for what's going on with me......

After doing some research and some figuring I'm thinking about taking the fall semester off. For the last 2 years I have been having to pay for part to all of my tuition and its so hard. I made it 2 years without taking out student loans but this past year I had to take one out. In my opinion I don't think that's bad at all. I'm very proud of myself for that but it has still been very hard trying to pay the remaining balance of it all.

But I'm scared that I might be making the wrong choice in all of this. In the fall I will be starting my 4th year at WKU and I just feel that I'm not getting anywhere. I'm no where near where I should be right now. I should be getting ready for block 1 and then doing my student teaching in the spring and graduating in May, but that's no where near where I really am. I feel like these past 3 years have been a waste. I know they really haven't but to me it feels like it sometimes.

Now since I have been thinking about all of this I have been questioning myself about my decision on teaching. I went through all of this last fall going into the spring semester and I thought that going part time would help me in all of this but it really didn't. I think that it might have made things more confusing.

If I do take the semester off then I just plan to work a lot and save for an apartment and tuition money. One thing that will break my heart if I do leave for a semester is leaving my WKU job. I have grown so close to some of my coworkers there. Our campus photographer told me the other day "Sarah, do what you love and the money will follow." This statement is so true! I need to find what I'm passionate about and I know that God will help me find this.