Quarterlife Crisis

It's 12:42 in the morning when I'm starting this blog entry......

I have had so so so much on my mind these last few days and I don't even really know where to start. There is so much going on in my life that I just broke down tonight. I just started crying for no reason. Well, I do have many reasons.

But first let me update you on some amazing news. Dad got a job!!! In my last blog I mentioned that a company was contacting him like crazy while we were on vacation. Well, after 2 interviews and a couple of days of figuring out the details he accepted the job and will start on Monday! Its a HUGE answer to prayers for our family. Since he is going to be starting this new job he will be gone more for a little while while he is getting things worked out and calling on all of his customers, but in the long run its going to be a really good thing. I'm so thankful that we had our week of vacation as a family and had such a wonderful time.

Now for what's going on with me......

After doing some research and some figuring I'm thinking about taking the fall semester off. For the last 2 years I have been having to pay for part to all of my tuition and its so hard. I made it 2 years without taking out student loans but this past year I had to take one out. In my opinion I don't think that's bad at all. I'm very proud of myself for that but it has still been very hard trying to pay the remaining balance of it all.

But I'm scared that I might be making the wrong choice in all of this. In the fall I will be starting my 4th year at WKU and I just feel that I'm not getting anywhere. I'm no where near where I should be right now. I should be getting ready for block 1 and then doing my student teaching in the spring and graduating in May, but that's no where near where I really am. I feel like these past 3 years have been a waste. I know they really haven't but to me it feels like it sometimes.

Now since I have been thinking about all of this I have been questioning myself about my decision on teaching. I went through all of this last fall going into the spring semester and I thought that going part time would help me in all of this but it really didn't. I think that it might have made things more confusing.

If I do take the semester off then I just plan to work a lot and save for an apartment and tuition money. One thing that will break my heart if I do leave for a semester is leaving my WKU job. I have grown so close to some of my coworkers there. Our campus photographer told me the other day "Sarah, do what you love and the money will follow." This statement is so true! I need to find what I'm passionate about and I know that God will help me find this.

Thoughtful Thursday

"Do what is going to please you the most and the money will follow"

-Clinton Lewis, WKU photographer

life

This summer I am starting to realize how precious and wonderful life really is! I can't really place my finger on the one thing that has really gotten me thinking this but its like it really has hit me this summer.

Yes Dad lost his job basically at the beginning of summer and hasn't gotten a job yet but has had 2 interviews and this second one he didn't even apply for. This company (CPC) has done all of the contacting and pursuing Dad. Its making Dad feel so great to have someone see the hard work that he puts into his work and recognizes it.

Last week my family and I went on vacation to Myrtle Beach, SC. Man was this a trip! I'm starting to see now that this is where I really started to realize how precious life is and the importance of family. Yeah we had a little to much togetherness at time but for the most part it was a WONDERFUL trip! We have memories now that I don't think we can ever forget.

As I'm getting older and starting to really think about moving out I'm seeing this that family is extremely important. Yeah I have always known this but I guess I'm just being more 'in tune' with my family right now. We have been having some of the best times lately just goofing off and being us. Its such a wonderful feeling to have and feel the love from your family.

Things with Matt and I couldn't be more wonderful! In the last few weeks I have gotten to meet his family and hang out with them. They are wonderful people and I can't wait to spend more time with them.